Mar 19 2010

And The Results Are….

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Nov 13 2009

Staying On The Same Track

Not much to report here.  I had my follow up with the doc, who gave us a better timeline.  We are looking at trying a cycle (with donor back up of course) around late February early March (this most likely means April, as nothing ever goes as planned).  He wants a full 5 or 6 months of the clomid, to increase any chances of me producing sperm.  Along with our talk, I gave my customary gallon of blood, as well as the ever so pleasant and may I add popular, Ol’ Jingle Jingle that comes with every visit to the urologist, but leaves me tender for a couple days!  How many people can say they had another man fondle their nuts on their wedding anniversary!!  😀

 Anyway, I got the phone call of my blood results yesterday.  It seems I am completely on track with the clomid.  The reference ranges for testosterone are approximately between 200 – 800 ng/dl.  My levels in Feb of 09 were 364 ng/dl.  They pretty much stayed right around there until after my varicocele surgery.  They first retested me on 10/13 with a result of 417 ng/dl.  I began taking the clomid on 10/19 and I was retested on 11/10 with a result of 574 ng/dl.  I know that testosterone levels fluctuate throughout the day, and I’m no doc, but I’ve never had a result over 400, so the clomid must be working.  The doc directed me to continue with the same dose I’ve been taking, and come back in 2 months.  Has anyone else in the infertility world noticed that it’s never days or weeks, waits always come in multiple months.  That officially closes out 2009 for infertility docs, blood draws, and scrotal exams (thank God on that last one), and goes down as one the crappiest (is that even a word) years of my life.  This does however mean, that it can only get better from here!!  Once you hit the bottom, the only thing left is up!!

On another note, Jess and I made the appointment with the Infertility counselor.  We will be going in the beginning of December to discuss our family building options, and whatever else they do there (I will probably end up institutionalized at the end of that meeting.  Then again, I am probably no more crazy than the next person dealing with all this.  I’m pretty sure this counselor has dealt with people that are bat-shit crazy.  Infertility can definitely have that affect on you!!). I think it will be really good for us.  Hopefully it will lower the stress, and prepare us for the tough choices we are going to  have to make for our family.  I know I’ve said we are both for the donor sperm, and we still are, but it is still tough emotionally.  I want us both, never to regret any decisions that we have made, or will make in the future.  Regardless of the decisions we do make, as long as it comes from the both of us, I’m sure it will be the correct one.

Oct 8 2009

No Kids In The Playground

As you can see from the title, yesterdays results were not good.  Actually, they were terrible.  I got a big fat zero on that test, and I swear I studied!!  Anyway, this brings me to the “What’s next?” question.  This question is constantly brought up when dealing with infertlility.  There’s always another road to travel, a new technique to try, always another next!  Unfortunately, I’m pretty stumped on that question.  I’m not too sure what is next.  I’ll be sure to post it when we figure it out.  I’m heading back to my wonderful urologists office on Tuesday, so I might have an answer by then.  All I know is that I’m not giving up.  I will be a father, no matter route we go.  If the first 5 times Iwas told that I was spermally challenged didn’t take me out the of game, then this is just another bump in the road.  I’m keeping my head up this time, and channeling the pain and grief into determination.

Mar 9 2009

Official Results (Finally!)

I happened to be in the area today, and I like to have copies of all the results.  So, I went to IVFNJ today and picked up the semenalysis results from Friday, as well as the official results for the Chromosome Reflex thingamajigger.  I have to say, the Chromosomes do look happy!  The results come with a pretty picture of a whole bunch of chromosomes that are sporadically placed on the page (I will eventually scan it and post it).  The official statement of the chromosome tests are that I am completely normal.  That is a bit of a relief, because gene problems can be passed to offspring.  I would never want anyone to have go through this.  As for the semenalysis, they did find some sperm but none were motile, and there didn’t appear to be any that were morphologically normal.  As I said in my last post, I’m just happy they found something.