May 14 2009

A Huge Sigh Of Relief!

To both Jess’, and my surprise, we got a phone call around 5pm today.  At first, my heart dropped, because I heard the lady on the phone say she was calling from my doc’s office.  Jess took the call because she is like my manager.  She does the scheduling ,  phone calls, and all the other stuff i would probably just screw up.  She was on the phone for a good ten minutes and I was starting to get nervous.  When she got off the phone, she looked at me and said “They have the results of your MRI.”  She paused, and didn’t say anything for a few seconds.  I was getting real anxious and wanted to throw a shoe at her to get her to speak!  Her next statement was something I will remember forever, and was by far the happiest moment of this year.  It was “The Doc says NO CANCER!”  We were both floored, and just decided to hug and hold each other for a while. 

I feel like I just lost the weight of the world off of my shoulders.  The doc had a whole lot more info and more tests and appointments, but right now I just want a little time to reflect and move forward.  The last couple weeks have probably taken 5 years off my life.  I am looking forward to a stress free couple of days and wonderful weekend!!

May 7 2009

Results Inconclusive (Of Course!!)

The results for MRI came back inconclusive.  As if I thought it would be any different.  I get to jump right back into the waiting/wondering  game.  I have an appointment with the doc tomorrow so maybe he can shed some light on things, and try a move stuff on the fast track.  I’m starting to think, that  waiting to see if this mass grows is the wrong choice.  I want to fix things before they get out of control.  For the first time in this whole process, I am beginning to get nervous.

Apr 29 2009


When I got home from the ultrasound, I pulled out the films and began to pretend I was a doctor.  I held them up to light and stared at what looked liked black and white blobs.  I found a couple words written on the films that I googled, and found out what they were.  I didn’t think twice about them and put them away.  When Jess got home I pulled them out again and explained some of the words and showed her the pictures.  She eventually got bored with my explanations and jokes, and took them out of my hands so she could look at them herself.  I didn’t think anything of it until she said the word “Mass”.  I ran back in the room and asked “Where did you see that?”  She paused for a minute and then showed me.  I don’t know how I could have missed it when I was looking at it, but it was definitely written directly on the pictures in large letters, and it had measurements.  Now I’m worrried!!