Mar 6 2009

We Got Sperm!

When I had my last appointment with the reproductive urologist, he wanted me to have another semenalysis.  I reluctantly agreed, and set up a appointment to bring it there.  Jess got in contact with IVFNJ, and they wanted it done faster, to move things along, and try to get her IVF cycle started sooner.  Jess canceled my appointment with urologist and made an earlier one with IVFNJ in Somerset.  She also rescheduled for the urologist minus the semenalysis.  D-day came, and I ventured to the IVFNJ somerset office, produced my sample (hopefully for the last time), and went on my merry way.

Jess called today to get the results.  Surprisingly, they found sperm!  The exact words over the phone, were,”there were a couple, but none of them are any good”.  Hey, I’ll take that!  It’s better than what we thought in the past.  Hopefully this is the beginning of more good news to come!

Feb 3 2009

Results Are In

The doctor called last night with the lab results.   I am still spermally (yes i know that this is not a word) challenged.  As I said before, we both decided not to get upset about them.  Even though I new that they would probably not change, I guess I had a little hope.  Now I know I can let that go and move on to the next part of the journey.  I’m  a little nervous about our consultation on Friday.  I am just afraid of them telling me that it’s not possible for me to have kids. 

*Update*     After spending about 1 hour on IVF NJ’s website, I feel much better about the consultation.  They have so many options, and treatments that are available.  I am pretty much willing to do whatever it takes to make this work!

Feb 2 2009

To The Lab! “Take Two”

This morning was my follow up semenanylisis.  Jess and I discussed that we would not let the results of this test, get to us.  We figured that since the first test was bad, that more than than likely the results are not going to change.  I guess that even though I’m pretty sure there will be no difference in results, I am going in with the glass is half full point of view.   Just like the New York State lottery commercials say “Hey, You Never Know!”

Jan 28 2009

Are you sure there wasn’t even one?!

This is the first of “hopefully” not too many entries.  I have to start out by saying I never thought that this would happen to me.  I figured that eventually things would come together and we would just have kids.  As time went on, I guess I realized something was not right.  I pushed off a statement by a urologist that was said many years ago to me when I had an infection of the prostate.  He realized something might be abnormal but said that I shouldn’t worry and there was no need to look further into it unless my wife (at that time, it was my girlfriend) was unable to get pregnant.  

I took my step into the fertility world on Monday 1/26/09.  I was provided with a sterile cup and told to do work.  I did the duty, dropped it off and tried to forget about it until the results came.  This brings us to today.

I knew something was wrong as soon as I got back into the house from a little potty stroll with Keena (that’s my dog by the way!).  Jess (my wife) was on the couch crying.  I knew she had called the doctor on the way out so I had an idea of what was wrong.  I was a little taken back when she said there was no sign whatsoever of any sperm in the semenalysis. 

I’m unsure of how to feel.  I keep running it through my head, and the only thing I could think of is that maybe someone made a mistake at the lab.  I know it sounds silly, and it’s probably not true, but how do you handle someone telling you that one of the main things that make a man, a man is not present in you.