Apr 14 2010


The picture above is from the official release paperwork we got this morning from the RE.  It clearly shows that we have been discharged to the OB!  This is another milestone we have achieved, and another step closer to our goals.  Every hurdle we clear makes it more and more real!!  I am still in awe at all the obstacles we have overcome, and the miracle that is growing.  The chances of this working out positive, was around 3% (Thanks for doing the math Mom!!).  This just shows that everyone who is struggling with this battle should never give up.  We are a prime example of overcoming the odds.  We fought, and never gave up.  There is still a long road ahead of us, but I feel a little bit more confident everyday.  I am so grateful to all the docs that made this possible!

Little Choochie had a big growth spurt this last week.  Choochie’s CRL (Crown to Rump Length) more than doubled in that time.  Last week the Chooch measured 5.1mm, and this week, 12.2mm!!  The heart was very clear today, and you can even see it in the picture below.  It is the brightest little spot right towards the middle of the measurement. 

Next Thursday is our first appointment with the OB, and I couldn’t be more excited!!  We have finally moved to a “normal” pregnancy state.  Nothing during the last couple years has been normal, and it’s really nice to get to that point.  Jess is even being weaned off the progesterone injections.  Once she’s done with that, we will be just like every other couple that is pregnant.  I never thought we would get to that point, and I couldn’t be happier!!

Mar 7 2010

Cycle Day – 16 (Grow Embabies, Grow!)

Waiting!!  That is the theme of the day.  There is nothing we can do to make anything different now.  The wheels are in motion, and we have no control in the direction they move.  It’s a great feeling of anxiety blanketed with a little bit of comfort.  The comforting feeling is because we  have moved past our major hump.  We have never been this far along, and the new path is confusing, but exciting.  The excitement is scary.  Scary, because of of the feelings we have invested in our little embabies!  They are only a couple days old, but we love each and every one of them like they are our children.  Only time will tell what our outcome will be, but everyday that goes by is another step toward the goal. We will have many more answers tomorrow.  Please pray for our little embabies!!

In regards to our physical health, we are both getting a little bit better day by day.  I’m still pretty sore, and still moving very slowly.  Jess still has some pretty bad tummy pain from the retrieval, but the PIO shot went a bit better tonight.  She gave me B- for todays shot, so I guess I learned from yesterdays mistakes.

Jess’ Meds for the day – Medrol, Ciproflaxcin, PIO IM injection

Kenny’s Meds for the day – last dose of Erythromicin, Percocet

Mar 5 2010

Cycle Day – 14 (Egg Retrieval)

Let me start off by saying, I had probably the worst night of sleep I’ve had in about ten years.  I woke up Jess multiple times in need of my pain meds.  I felt so bad every time I woke her up, because I just wanted her to get a good night sleep for her egg retrieval today.  I’m not too sure why, but I was in a little more pain this time around than last.  The only thing I can chalk it up to is that my doc, as he said “Took ALOT!” out of me. 

We all got up at 7am and Jess and Lori got ready to head out.  I didn’t make the trip with them for the egg retrieval, because there is no way I would be able to sit there for that long.  I’m still hurtin’ pretty bad.  The 2 of them set me up on the couch and then headed out.  About ten minutes after they left, the phone here rang.  The caller ID showed me that it was her docs calling.  I knew they would be calling this morning, because we never received a call yesterday about the results of my sperm retrieval (Long story, but someone dropped the ball on that one!)  The lady on the phone introduced herself as Jess’ embryologist.  My stomach starting turning, and all I wanted to say to her was that maybe she should call Jess.  I bunkered down and basically told her to let me have it!  I was ready for the result, I prepared myself for this for months.  The donor sperm was in place, and the result of no sperm would not be news to me!!  Of course I would be a little disappointed, but nowhere near as devastated as I was a year ago.  The next words from the embryologist hit me like a brick right upside my head.  Confusion spread throughout my body and I could feel the tears welling up inside.  I was not ready for this.  I didn’t even know what to say.  I can’t remember exactly what she said, but all I know is that they found sperm.  Not only did they find sperm, but it was of good enough quality to use for ICSI, and there was enough to pick from.  She explained to me the reason they didn’t call yesterday was that while they had found sperm, none were motile last night.  They let them sit overnight and voila, we have motile sperm.  I immediately began to panic, and needed to get a hold of Jess.  The months of preparation for donor, all came crashing down in seconds, and I wasn’t prepared to allow myself  hope again.  I’m still not!  This could all end with devastation again, and it would definitely hurt just as much as the first time I found out that I had no sperm.

My phone call to Jess was awkward, and she could tell by my voice something was wrong.  I gave her the news, and neither of us had anything to say.  I kept repeating to her that i had wish they called her instead of me.  I’m not sure why I wanted this, but I’m thinking it wouldn’t be real if it happened that way.  There wasn’t any discussion, I just told her to talk to the embryologist when she got there.  I waited a little over an hour, and I finally got the call from Lori to let me know they took her in.

Lori explained to me the conversation they had with the embryologist, and what they were going to do.  They are going to use whatever sperm they can from me to fertilize as many eggs as they can first.  The embryologist also stated she wasn’t finished looking through my specimen, so there could be more.  If there are leftover eggs, they will fertilize them with our donor backup “Kurt”!  The fertilized eggs will be stored separately.  We will know much more, tomorrow morning.  There still is the possibility that they won’t be able to use any of mine, so we are not getting our hopes too high!!   All we know for now is they retrieved 13 eggs.  Funny thing is, 13 is my lucky number!!!

When Jess and Lori got home,  Jess was still a little groggy, and we all decided to take a nap!!!  There is nothing more we can do tonight but wait.  Here’s a crude illustration of what is to occur tonight at the lab!!

Jess’ symptoms of the day – she is in a pretty good deal of pain, as to be expected after an egg retrieval.  The bloating is worse, and she is complaining she has back pain. We are currently on a urine watch, because she is not going enough!!!  Lori called the doc, and she said that if Jess doesn’t void enough by 7pm, that we have to go to the ER for her to get catheterized.  Let’s pray for pee!!  I’ll update later with our pee results!!!!!

Jess’ Medications – Ciproflaxin, Medrol, Percocet

Kenny’s Meds – Erythromycin, Perocet

Mar 4 2010

Cycle Day – 13 (Slice and Dice)

We all got up at the butt crack of dawn.  Her cousin Lori and I headed out first.  We were on the road at 4:45am en route to the slice and dice!!  Jess was able to get up a little bit later, because she had to go get blood work done at 7am.  This is the same time my surgery began, hence my trip with her cousin.  The whole morning went pretty much without a hitch.  I met with my doc and the anesthesiologist, and the rest is a bit blurry!! 

I woke up in recovery with Jess there.  She said the first words out of my mouth were her name in a raspy voice, then me saying, quite loudly may I add, “Did They Get The Stuff?” , “Where’s Lori?”  This was followed by me passing back out in a demerol and morphine stuper.  The next thing I remember is being  wheeled to the second recovery room, meeting up with Jess, and shoving a bagel down my throat!!  For some reason when I come out from anesthesia, I’m always starving!!!!! She gave me the details from the doc as well letting me know that sperm runner (Lori) had completed her mission!!  My doc told her he took  “ALOT” out, as this would be my last try for sperm retrieval.  I’m assuming that is why I’m in a pretty decent amount of pain!! 

For those of you who wonder what they put in the little brown bag of goodness, and what it looks like after the TESE procedure, you can thank Lori.  She snapped a shot of it before she dropped it off!!

We got out of the hospital as soon as they would let me go.  Lori had already made it home and was waiting for us to return.  When we got home, I passed out, and slept till about 4pm.  Our house mommy made us dinner (Chicken Marsala, Yummm!!), and we just sat, and watched some TV.  We are all turning in early tonight.  Tomorrow is Jess’ big day.  I’m probably not going to be able to make it there, but she ‘s got Lori, and I’ll be there in spirit. Lets hope the Easter Bunny comes bearing a basket full of eggs!!

Jess’ symptoms of the day – While still feeling like crap, she is happy to have night off injections.  I’m attributing all her tummy pain to her baseball size ovaries!!  She’s still in good spirits, and focused on the goal!!

No Meds for Jess – Painkillers and Antibiotics for Kenny

Mar 3 2010

Cycle Day – 12 (hCG Trigger Shot)

What a day!!  It was a race from start till now.  I began the day with a call from Jess, who was a bit frantic about our Cetrotide delivery (which by the way is about 2 days to late!!).  I ‘m not going to even get into our dumb insurance company and their stupid rules.  All I have to say is thank you to IVFNJ for providing us with meds we needed free of charge.  The delivery of Cetrotide we got today, is going to be donated back to them to replenish their donor stock. 

The next disaster of the day was trying to get a appointment with my primary for my medical clearance for my surgery.  Jess, got real close to full panic mode, and probably used all her cell phone minutes for month, and it’s only the 3rd!!  The receptionist was really nasty and short with Jess.  After a brief but nasty exchange, she finally got me an appointment and got all the paperwork faxed for me to bring.  Apparently, I am as healthy as a horse (so says my doc)!  I got my medical clearance and headed home to wait for things to come together.  Unfortunately they never did.  Jess’ docs did their part.  My doc dropped the ball.  We didn’t find out for sure until about 5pm, after about 500 phone calls.  They finally let us know that my surgery was on for tomorrow, and what time I am scheduled for. I’m getting the old Slice and Dice at 7am, wish me luck!!

With that behind us, lets move to tonight. Our house mommy/savior arrived safely.  Jess’ cousin Lori came form Pennsylvania to help us out for the next couple days.  For one, I need someone to come with me to surgery in the morning, because Jess has to get her blood test and ultrasound at the same time.  We also need a runner for my baby batter, once it is extracted.  I have to go to recovery after my surgery, and the goods need to be delivered ASAP.  Jess is going to shoot up to Hackensack to meet up with us as soon as she gets out of the docs office.  Lori is going to run the goods to Somerset, and Jess is going to wait with me until I get released from the hospital.  None of this would work without Lori’s help.  And for that, I have to thank her!  Lori, you win best cousin of the year for that one!!  Love You!!!!!!

 We will be doing the hCG trigger shot for Jess tonight at 10pm.  This puts her for her egg retreival at 10am on Friday.   My retreival is set for 7am tommorow.  Let’s hope everything works out!! 

Jess’ symptoms for the night – she generally feels ok, slight headache, but in good spirits.  Tummy is the same, but it must be nice to only have one shot to do tonight.  She will probably feel like she is in heaven tomorrow, when there are no shots to do!!!!  Now is the time for everyone to cross their fingers and their toes!!  We need all the help we can get!!

Today’s Meds – Jess’ Injections – hCG shot to trigger ovulation